Windsor Junk Yard

This was part of a photography trip to Hawkesbury including Windsor Junk Yard, Ebenezer Church, Richmond and autumn leaves

The junk yard in Windsor is a veritable treasure trove of the widest assortment of junk you can imagine. Old appliances, bicycles, pots, bottles, signs, wheels and whatever else you can think of.  Whoever started this place had a serious case of squirrelitus.  It was fun to take photos and peruse all the old items, wondering at the stories they could tell if they could only speak.

  

 

 

Ebenezar Church

This was part of a photography trip to Hawkesbury including Windsor Junk Yard, Ebenezer Church, Richmond and autumn leaves.

Richmond

This was part of a photography trip to Hawkesbury including Windsor Junk Yard, Ebenezer Church, Richmond and autumn leaves.

Autumn colours

This was part of a photography trip to Hawkesbury including Windsor Junk Yard, Ebenezer Church, Richmond and autumn leaves.

Favourite memories with Dani

2012 Memories

• Meeting in Kiribili pub (I forgot to pay for the drinks, talking for ages, driving her home.)  
• Breakfast in Waverton and taking Dani home to meet Mack.
• Our first big date, going to a fancy restaurant for scollops.  Apple cider exploding. Holding her when we shared an umbrella.
• Going roller-blading and holding hands for first time, then going to cinema to watch Prometheus and eating at Nando's.
• Friday night dancing steps
• Govindas (Marigold Hotel) - and holding hands.
• My first time at Cremorne Orpheum to watch The Sapphires.  
• Our first kiss after watching Alien and Aliens. She laughed!
• Sending flowers to her work day after.  "Hope your day is as radiant as your smile."
• Sydney Olympic park to watch The Footie. (end Jun)
• 2 Creeks Hike - then Mexican restaurant.  (end June)
• Dee Why while Dani house sitting Natalie's house  (Jul)
• Writing Dani a letter.
• Chorus Line
• To Natalie and Andrew for lamb dinner and having so much in common with Zac.
• Whale watching (Aug)
• Walks around Sydney along coast (fortifications & nude swim, Middle Head)
• Ice skating at UTS  (Aug)
• Evening with Brendan
• Blue Mountains weekend away (key in the dark, two hikes, Italian restaurant, Leura)  (Aug)
• Her letter to me before South Africa.
• Texts while I was in South Africa plus Skype chat.
• Dani's 40th - picnic at the park in Kirribilli.
• Zac's birthday dinner - meeting her mum and dad.
• Fancy dress in Blue Mountains for Dani's 40th - and walking.
• Frisbee in the park
• Radical Reels (Nov)
• Matthias Klum for my birthday.  (Dec)
• Getting Xmas presents for her family (mum & dad a book, chocolates for Andrew & Natalie, helicopter for Zac, toy for Sally)
• Her wonderful Xmas gift of a slow cooker.
• Our roadtrip (Farm, birds, Waterfall Way, Cathedral Rock,  Koala place,  Dubbo, NY eve, Mudgee)

2013 memories

• Dragon boat racing
• Flowers "Just because"  She Facebooked it.
• Game of Thrones,  Breaking Bad
• Getting me into Walking Dead
• University student art exhibit  (Mar)
• Showing me old photos (Cambridge)
• Hunter Valley  (Mar)
• Ocean Festival  (Mar)
• To Shelly Beach for snorkelling.
• Port Stephens  (Apr)
• Shopping for DVD.
• Shopping for clothes.
• Into the city for Chinese - wrong park!
• Sailing on the harbour (Apr)
• Kayaking Clontarf to Manly and trying out Honu (Apr)
• Sirius Cove with Mack (Apr)
• To pub in Mosman with friends for birthday.
• Banff Mountain Festival (May)
• To friends for dinner (chef)  (Jun)

Rituals

• Doing my little dance before bed
• Evening texts
• Paddling on Saturday mornings
• Phoning after paddling to decide what we'd do
• A big hug when we greeted
• Greeting her at her door to her apartment
• Macedamian nuts on her table and the crusher
• Driving her to station in morning (before work)
• Watching her get dressed (always up first)
• Showering together
• Thai take-away
• Washing up by rinsing and leaving.
• Mocha and newspaper in bed on a Saturday morning
• Saturday markets (Paddy, Kirribilli)
• Couch surfing (reclining), watching TV, hand on leg
• Finding parking outside her house (often difficult)
• Mocha - mutual love
• Listening to work updates (Mark) and giving support.
• Listening to paddling politics.

Things I loved about her

• Holding hands in movies
• Hand on leg in movie, car
• Love of all things French
• Sporty and her sporty clothes
• Love of Science fiction, disaster and apocolyptic movies
• I'll have to do my happy, happy, joy, joy booty shaking victory dance!
• Her lovely bottom
• Sportiness and sporty clothes
• Her wonder for wildlife, especially whales, dolphins, penguins
• Love for paddling (her meditation)
• Her belief in girl power
• Sentimentality (still had everything in her cupboard, including her soft toys)
• All her medals and necklaces
• Pride in her car - scared to park in roofed parking
• Her lovely smelling hair
• Her love of hugs
• Playing with Sally. 
• The way spoke about friend's babies.
• How amazing she looked when dressed up.
• Unexpectedly stabbing my mouth with her tongue when kissing
• The thoughts that went into her gifts (to me, Xmas presents for the family)
• Fear of creepy children and clowns (in movies)

Expressions

• G-lishious
• G-Force, Delilah
• Oooh, La lah!
• Woo hoo!!
• Giddy Up
• Ending texts with "hugs"
• "You're so funny" (with my navigation)
• How was your day?
• Mmmmmm.

Cinema

• The Marigold Hotel
• The Saphires
• Radical Reels
• Banff Mountain festival
• Contiki
• Les Miserables
• Ocean Festival
• Life of Pi
• Samsara
• Silver Linings Playbook
• Argo
• Moonrise Kingdom
• Prometheus
• Skyfall
• The Great Gatsby
• Beasts of the Southern Wilds  (director was there!!)
• The Hobbit
• The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo

DVD's

• Breaking Bad (S 1- 4)
• Funny Face
• Game of Thrones (S1 - 3)
• Jack Reacher
• Limitless
• Looper
• Pretty Woman
• Ruby Spark
• Searching for Sugarman
• Second World
• The Apartment
• Vertigo
• Welcome
• 21 Jump Street
• Drive
• Hall Pass
• Hunger Games
• Man on a Ledge
• Sherlock Holmes: A Game of Shadows
• This Means War
• The Five Year Engagement
• The Hunger Games
• The Separation (Iranian)

Restaurants

• Fancy restaurant (Scollops)
• Thai restaurant (hers)
• Nandos (Chatswood, Neutral Bay)
• Mexican (Two Creeks)
• Italian (Blue Mountains, both trips)
• Chinese (Blue Mountains)
• Pizza (Blue Mountains)
• Hunter Valley (desserts)
• Hunter Valley (pizza)
• Nepalese
• Spanish Tapas
• Radio Cairo (then to 80's party)
• Into the city for Chinese - wrong park!
• Thai (Neutral Bay)
• Thai (Waverton)
• French (Anniversary)

Cooking

• Tiramisu 
• Belgian Waffles
• Her delicious Irish stew from her deep bowls.
• Lamb we made for Xmas
• Roast beef with garlic pushed in.
• Cooking for her (steak, Ossu Buccu, dinner party with Sue and Alex, spag bol)

Related

• More photos

A penguin love story

By Joanne Boting, photographed at Boulders Beach, Cape Town.

What a beautiful boy

Lovely photo, Jo.

Father's Day in Cape Town

Thanks for the photos, Jo.

Letter before break up

 Dear Dani

I've been thinking a lot today and feeling so, so sad, and I realise a big part of that sadness is due to remorse and regrets and wishing I'd done some important things differently.

My greatest regret is to have caused you pain. I've loved you for a long time and no one deserves happiness more than you - and it hurts like hell that I've made you hurt so much.

I'm also sorry that I didn't talk to you about my experience of depression early in our relationship. It's something I've always been ashamed of and seen as a sign of weakness and hidden even from my best friends - even Russell.  In my relationship with you, I was terrified you'd judge me and reject me because of it, especially knowing about my dad.  I convinced myself that it happened over 12 years ago, and that it isn't relevant in my life any more.  But, as I've realised from the soul searching I've done this week, it is.  You deserve to have known about it. By keeping it from you, I stopped you from seeing all the aspects of me and I didn't properly let you in.

I'm sorry I didn't have the courage to confront my concerns about having a child much earlier on - and realise that it was such an issue for me.  I should have explored it far more when I initially went to see the counsellor and the fear of you becoming pregnant came up as a possible factor.  I allowed myself to get distracted by other things - when that was the most important issue to explore by far because of its implications for us. 

I'm sorry that in our relationship, I have focused so much on the present and not nearly enough on the future. I've been so busy loving being with you and relishing your company and sharing experiences with you, that I didn't think enough and talk to you enough about where we were headed.  I focused on bringing happiness to you in the moment, but I didn't project the possibility of bringing you greater unhappiness in the future.  I wish I'd been more courageous in asking you of your dreams and hopes and expectations.  It would have brought us to talk more about children and made me confront things.

I realise that you're most likely feeling angry with me - and I understand that. I fear too that you're feeling regret about our whole relationship, that you are feeling that it has distracted you from getting what you really want for the future at such an important time in your life. I understand that too - although it hurts to think about it. You're such an amazing, beautiful, wonderful person and it has been such a blessing to know you that I can't regret for a second having had you in my life.  But I do so, so regret the way things are now and causing you hurt. 

I'm not writing this email to ask you for any reassurance and there is no pressure to reply. I realise our relationship is almost certainly over. I realise that you need lots of time to process things.   I just wanted to let you know how I'm feeling and that I'm thinking of you constantly and hoping you are ok.  If there is anything you need, I'm here.

G

Matt playing hockey

Thanks for the photos, Jo.

1st Anniversary with Dani

 

Progress (2013)

Compass

• Reflection and insights integral part of life
• Start life tracking in excel 
• Track expenses
• Timesheet

Spiritual

• Purpose to be a loving, calm space for consciousness to flow
• Deep spiritual wonder, LOVE, crying, release
• Ability to feel and cry, especially to music and on walks.
• Power of meditation (yawn, stretch, cry) to blits agitation
• Deep stillness on some walks
• Daily mindful walking
• Power of music to make me feel (sad violin)
• Compassion (press exhibit, homeless man, Carl, Chris's guy)
• Equanimity and peace of mind and presence during my Xmas trip
• Deep spiritual wonder and love
• Develop Mantra
• Music ( i-tunes lite, spiritual music, Spotify)

Wisdom Trove

• List of virtues, challenges, vices
• All quotes in excel
• Manage distractions (news, Facebook)
• Timed working
• Mindfulness bell
• Manage distractions (news, Facebook)

More

• Joining Meet Up
• i-phone notes
• Personal commitments (off double dex, porn)
• Spreading dex out over day
• Cooking with slow  cooker
• Two handed tennis forearm
• Camera club presentation
• Fearless injection, by breathing
• Kept to my fundamentals while in enormous pain re Dani pregnancy  (walks, breakfast, timed work, meditation)

Jasan

Thanks for the photos, Jo.