Mermaid Falls

 

Event highlights (2021)

 

Covid 100 day lockdown  (June 26 - Sep 26)

• Meet up with Xenia in Milson's Park
• Online Zoom quizzes for lockdown
• Watching many movies with a twist

Weekends away

• Zante and Andrew wedding
• Visit Tina in Carcoar with Chris
• MDMA weekend at Blue Mountains with Shushann and Aimee

Outings

• High tea at Vaucluse House

House

• Install glass panel 
• Christina moves in

Hikes and walks

• Outing with Elna to waterfall 
• Malabar Headland with Elna
• Hike to water holes with Srini and Gavin 
• Mermaid Falls with hiking gang (celebrate freedom)
• Overnight hiking in Blue Mountains with Andrew and Zante 
• Hike to Colo river for an amazing swim with Srini 
• Waverton to Milson's Point with Liz and Mark

Purchases

• iPhone 13,
• Mackbook Pro: life in order

Connect

• Nic's web site
• Michael's gift - such generosity
• Aimee book launch 
• Table tennis with Chris
• Martin's 65th party

Wisdom Trove 

• Development with Rujuta (secondary navigation, random owls etc.) 
• Soft launch (Sep)
• Life is God's movie - world as illusion, self as illusion etc., Idealism, finite mind as VR headset

Balls Head with Chris and Xenia

 

Swimming with Elna

 

Launch of Wisdom Trove

It's been a lot of work but every minute has been worth it. I've learned so much from this project, in terms of both life wisdom and web development skills. Hopefully others will also find the site useful.

Progress (2021)

Health

• Smoothies

Spiritual

• Bernardo Kastrup Youtube and course

Folders

• Chrome bookmark folders
• iPhone Home Folders

Rituals

• Compass dashboard each day
• Sit and be
• Gratitude in morning
• Time working

Life in order

• Realise importance
• Work in order allows momentum across many
• Financial spreadsheet for annual review

Life design

• Start it properly
• Realise importance of research

Purchases

• iPhone 13
• Macbook Pro 
• Personal freezer
• Kmart clothes (T shirt, trousers,  track-suit tops, shorts) 

Wisdom Trove

Content

• Truths - do many topics
• Metaphors for God
• Spiritual narratives (The purpose of life, The existence of cosmic meaning and purpose: fact or fiction?)
• The paranormal  (near death experiences, psychedelics, savants, telepathy etc.)
• God (Evidence for and against God, Can an omnipotent God be reconciled with the existence of evil and suffering in the world?)
• Comedians
• Aimee poems
• Hedonic adaptation, Mathematics, Quantum fields
• Many topics on Death, Creativity, Wisdom
• Wisdom in humour, poetry, stories, humour

Life is God's movie

• Life is God's movie: book (Presentation to Aimee, Structure and flow)
• The world we experience is a projection of the mind
• The finite mind is a virtual reality headset that consciousness puts on
• Virtual reality
• Is the world we experience an illusion?
• Is the world a computer simulation?
• The world we experience is a virtual reality simulation of the real world
• Time and space exist only as appearances in consciousness
• The separate self (ego) you take yourself to be is no more real than a fictitious character in a movie.
• Idealism, Dualism, Panpsychism, Materialism
• Science, philosophy and spirituality all point to the illusion of the self

Secondary menu

• Set up

Sidebar

• Related truths, related advice, full check

Home page

• Featured topics, Profound truths, Advice for living

Development

• Find Rujuta
• Menu's, random owl heads, login-out, view your profile
• Edit replace

Set to live (end Sep)

• Launch to friends (Shushann, Gavin etc.)
• Gavin send out

Admin functions

• Stats (Clicky visitor action log)
• Admin view
• Chrome favourite folders

Nic site

• Dispel Elementor

My 51st birthday at Waverton Park

 

Affirmation (2021)

 

Aimee

• Love Wisdom Trove so much. Believe in it so much.  Maybe bring us both abundance.
• You are a model of kindness, what I'll be looking for in a relationship.
• You and mum are my two special people who I love unconditionally. You're perfect.  (In dairy)  
• Genius
• My soul brother. My best friend.
• MDMA 20 times what I had hoped.
• Hope I'm 25% of friend to you as you are to me.
• Thanks at book launch (Aimee and Pip)  Couldn't have done without you.
• Thanks for today. I feel SooooooOooOoo much more clear (after discussing life is God's experience, movie)
• Poem - didn't think you wrote it.
• I am lost for words. It’s magnificent. One of the most beautiful poems I have ever read. Not kidding  Pls pls share anymore! This has just given my day the biggest lift
• Ps I am soo grateful for you and our friendship - haven’t feel a lot lately so it’s nice to feel this this morning.

Shushann

• Masculine energy, brotherly, love too expansive for a single partner
• So many nourished by you.
• Grounded energy transfer.
• Whoever gets you won't know their luck.
• Shushann's article re me being soul brother and model of positive masculinity. Super-power as service.

Nic web site

• Branding for Nic
• It's starting to look amazing
• Mum:  Wow. Love it.
• Going to be incredible.  Better than anything out there.

 Victor

• You've sent me the best business requirements document I've seen since my corporate career. I wrote a book on the System Development LifeCycle and several chapters are dedicated to requirements elicitation and documentation.

Gavin

• Can't think of anyone possibly not liking Graeme
• Ingenious.  Really good, not just saying because you're my friend.  End up where not intending to go. Intuitive. Been going in every day.  Keep open on one screen all day. 
• Want to promote to my network. Was speaking to class and they asked "where inspiration?"  I wanted to tell about Wisdom Trove.
• I love Wisdom Trove. Great work.

Mackie

Gratitude (2021)

Various

• Chris fixed watering system
• Did not buy MacBook Pro - before new chip
• Extra 3 supplies of dex! 9 per day for months
• Keys left in garage, returned to me (label)
• Did not get Covid from Christina

Mack

• Mack teeth - ok
• Mack lost and found (and Liza not home)

Financial

• Michael: $10,000
• Extra dividends $3K not expecting

Wisdom Trove

• Wordpress security: hacked but no spyware, no account taken over
• Staging slow because of different plugin

Christina

• Wonderful housemate
• Gets on so well with Martin

Finances

• Still got $178 k after buying Macbook ($5500) and Wisdom Trove development

Partition

• Partition is so great. Perfect for work from home.
• Glass partition:  Jo for idea,  3 responses,  cheaper than expect,  installed over flooring,  partition not too wide
• Electricity problem upstairs not partition
• Glass partition great and electrical issue solved in few hours (not from roof, or needing partition out)
• Partition no charge $600

Car

• Getting car out of Bunnings
• Steve and car ($600)
• Car engine overheat (only $200)
• Accident miss in car (so close) 

Priceless moments (2021)

 

Book launch

• Time with Sharon (at Aimee's book launch)
• Sharon witnessed the affirmation
• Sharon: You're such a beautiful man
• Thanks from Aimee and Pip (at book launch)

Dianna

• Talking to Dianna at Eckhart

Wisdom Trove

• Menu and random owl working

Movies

• Dune (with lamb after)
• The Last Duel

Special connections (2021)

Liza

• Pay Mack's teeth

Yogi

• Help Yogi with anxiety and presence.  Be aware of being aware as mantra and remain open.
• "You and Eckhart are my guru"
• "I am very grateful for having you in my life."
• "You've made such a difference.  Thank you."
• That was absolutely magnificent (after discussing surrender and life as a movie)

MDMA weekend with Aimee and Shushann

• Beautiful affirmation

Help Nic with site

• Reference
• Thanks heaps!
• It's looking amazing. Best site out there.
• Hypnosis session

Xenia

• Meet at Milson's Park during lockdown
• The Botanica

Chris

• Openness re anti vax
• Table tennis
• The Botanica and Japanese restaurant

Elna

• Movies (High Ground, aboriginal)
• Sea pool
• New Year's eve Love.Fish restaurant
• Waterfall outing

Spiritual moments (2021)

MDMA experience

• Spent a weekend with Aimee and Shushann in The Blue Mountains where we took MDMA for spiritual purposes.
• It didn't effect me as much as Aimee and Sharon, maybe because of medication I'm on?
• Aimee and Shushann were extremely loving and said some beautiful affirming things to me. I felt deeply appreciated and loved. There was also lots of loving touch.
• I helped Aimee process some past trauma and issues and stood in for her dad and some others.  A little self conscious but Shushann later said it was exactly right what I said.  

Morning gratitude

• I go through a list of things I'm deeply grateful for each morning. It makes me feel very connected to Life.

Talks with Yogi when he was struggling with anxiety

• Yogi was struggling immensely with anxiety over having to find a new home to stay in.  
• We had some amazing conversations and I found myself giving wise advice on how to cope with anxiety, relating to Presence (resting in awareness), letting things be and being the space for emotions. Also how being in our senses reduces anxiety.
• Beautiful feedback from Yogi such as "That was just magnificent"  and "You and Eckhart are my guru."

Wisdom

• Bernardo Kastrup Youtube and course

Challenges (2021)

Finding new housemate

• Leave many months 

Glass partition

• Anxious won't fit, not careful measuring

Electricity

• Electricity problem with partition
• Electricity problem upstairs - cutting out

Car

• Overheating

Mack and Liza

• Kidneys
• Mack to vet every 4 - 6 weeks

Nic and site

• Feeling not up to it
• Wanting to radically change my first go (logo too)

Wisdom Trove

• SEO issues
• Gavin launch damp squid - so much time
• Security issues and hack

Branding suggestion for Nic's new business

I'm building a web site for my friend, Nic. Here is my suggested brand concept.

Online quizzes (during lockdown)

Shushann and Lydia walk

 

Playing table tennis with Chris

That's a ball in his drink! 

Mack loves Martin

 

Milson's Park with Xenia

Mack celebrating Liza's birthday with Jack Russell whisky!

 

Sam 21st birthday

 Hi there dear Sam

Happy happy 21st birthday. I feels like only yesterday I came to South Africa to see my beautiful baby niece. How wonderful it’s been to see you grow up into the amazing, extraordinary woman you are today - so full of intelligence, depth and fun. May the next stage of your life journey bring you a treasure trove of love, wonder, adventure and joy. We all love you so much.   Ps. Hope your party last night was amazing! I did so love the video Jo made for you. 

G

Mackie

Dear Mackie at home and at the park.

Beautiful article from Shushan that I helped inspire

Hi there dear Graeme

Here is the article that I’m planning to post out on Tuesday. Please let me know if there is anything that feels uncomfortable for you.

Looking forward to walking and catching up

Love Shushann

 

He Offered To Do The Dishes..

I’ve been fortunate enough to have had some good hearted, kind, caring men in my life who have supported me in various ways through their acts of service. These include my accountant, my mechanic, various handymen and a couple of male friends. One particular male friend I would describe as a soul brother. I have really appreciated his capacity for presence, insightful conversation, playful humour as well as thoughtful affirmation and encouragement when I’ve needed it.

But I would describe his male superpower as his acts of service. These are caring things he has done for me that have made my life easier.  This soul brother has been a wonderful model of the high masculine for myself as well as other female friends that have loved and appreciated his company and friendship. 

Giving and Receiving

My soul brother's presence and modelling has created a valuable template for me in my own healing journey around men. His masculine quality of Giving has taught me step into my feminine quality of Receiving. To do so I've had to learn to trust and open my heart and allow myself to feel my own vulnerability and need. We can spend a lot of our life pretending we don’t need others or anything.  This can often lead to isolation and exhaustion. There is an art in receiving things graciously. Allowing the gift of being given-to, to land in our hearts with that feeling of acceptance and worthiness and without feeling we must give something back. There is something special about the acceptance of being given to that is also an affirmation, a gift to the giver.

There is a certain honour in my soulful brother’s actions that feels old fashioned in the sense that they carry with them a sense of safety, protectiveness and genuine care without any obligation.  Women’s instinctive desire to feel protected by a man hasn’t gone away. It’s a hard-wired instinct and it is difficult to ignore for even the most independent, strong women amongst us.

Safety in Relationships

Safety is one of the key elements that women seek in their relationship with men. Perhaps this is part of our tuning into a collective consciousness where almost 1 in 5 women (18%) and 1 in 20 men (4.7%) have experienced sexual violence (sexual assault and/or threats) since the age of 15.  And globally, one out of three women will be sexually assaulted in their lifetime.

The trust and safety that has been built in my relationship with this particular male friend has been built on a foundation of small but consistent acts of kindness, care and service over the time of our friendship. These are qualities that I endeavour to cultivate in myself in my relationships. The consistency is key in building trust. Walking our talk when we stand for integrity.

 

I'll Do The Dishes...

I remember last Christmas I had a lovely gathering of friends over for a shared lunch. Just at a point after lunch where I felt I was flagging, my soul brother got up from the table and quietly said “I’ll do the dishes” in that matter of fact way.  I felt a momentary impulse to say I'd do them later, but chose instead to simply graciously accept. As he started moving back and forth from the table to the kitchen I could feel myself relaxing. I felt an incredible wellness wash over me, that I didn’t have to ask or to carry on doing things on my own. There was help and mostly that it was given without having to ask. That felt such a blessing.

What has been liberating for me in having this soul brother is to engage in our friendship and emotional intimacy without the complication of sex. We haven't tried to label it or change it, but to simply appreciate what is there without any expectation of something more or less. Many of us know what it is like to jump too quickly into a sexual relationship that carries no intimacy.

Are you waiting for the evolved partner?

I know many of us as women can get caught up in our complaints about the many shortcomings of men around us. We are waiting for that evolved male partner or even friend to turn up. But what if we simply started to explore this as our own soul journey of integration rather than waiting. What qualities of the high masculine are you curious about in your life? Would like more of in your life? Are there men around you who are role models for you around this?  And how do these qualities live in you? Or not?   

Love and blessings

Shushann

Visit with Jilly

 

Lunch with Jane and Xenia

 

Watson's Bay with Gavin and Srini