My first spiritual song

 

I created my first spiritual song with Suno, inspired by a poem I wrote in 2021.

Right now

Right now I Am…

   soaring high on outstretched wings

   opening my petals to the morning sun

   scurrying through a termite cathedral

  spinning an intricate web of silk

   trumpeting through an upturned trunk

   laying eggs in a little pond

   picking nits from my lover’s fur

   probing the damp soil with my spindly roots

   singing a duet through a twittering beak

   galloping along on mud-spattered hooves

   surfing waves with gleeful squeaks

   gazing out meditatively with large, luminous eyes

   stretching my branches up and out into the vast, open sky

   smelling for truffles with my sensitive, pink snout

   probing a hole in the rocks with a nimble tentacle

   paddling along a stream with powerful kicks

   hungrily sucking warm milk from my mother’s teat

   searching the ocean bed in search of a larger shell to call home

   charging headlong into the horns of another with a mighty clash

   licking my paws with a raspy tongue

   wriggling this way and that to shed my scaly skin

   breathing in air through my damp, permeable membrane

   bobbing up and down in an intricate dance with my life-long mate

   cutting the water with my dorsal fin

   rising up on thrusting haunches in orgasmic release

   stalking stealthily in pursuit of unsuspecting prey

   enclosing my young one in a protective embrace of flippers and feet

   staring patiently at the water with my rapier like bill ready to strike

   wagging my tail in unrestrained welcome

   sharing a belly-laugh with a beloved friend

   staring in wonder at a crimson sunset

   shedding grief-stricken tears at an untimely loss

   typing this poem with clumsy fingers and an open heart

All these things I, the Cosmic Mind,  experience in the timeless Now

and a quintillion quintillion more things

across countless different worlds and dimensions.

All experiences past, present, and future

exploding forth as pure perception from the Singularity I Am,

the Infinite Awareness I Am,

in a great, exultant cosmic bang,

creating the ultimate immersive, experiential work of art,

wondrous and beautiful,

epic and profound,

beyond all imagination.

Another spiritual song (entirely different!)

Based on a poem I wrote in 2021.

I Am

I am unremitting joy. I am utter despair.

I am languid peace. I am chaotic turmoil.

I am abundant generosity. I am insatiable greed.

I am adoring love. I am heartless indifference.

I am pure innocence. I am vulgar sleaze.

I am cocksure swagger. I am fearful doubt.

I am a shy smile.  I am a vicious snarl.

I am a soaring symphony. I am a fearful din.

I am a scurrying ant.  I am a motionless sloth.

I am a soaring eagle.  I am a crawling worm.

I am a gargantuan tree.  I am a tiny flower.

I am an omnipotent king.  I am a cowering subject.

I am an athletic champion.  I am a lazy slob.

I am a holy saint.  I am an atrocious tyrant.

I am an impenetrable jungle.  I am a withered land.

I am a  mountain peak.  I am a gaping abyss.

I am a blazing sun.  I am a planet of ice.

I am an endless galaxy.  I am a grain of sand.

I am a radiant light.  I am the darkest night.

I am this.  I am that.

I am here.  I am there.

I am him.  I am her.

I am you.  I am me.

I am the collective experience of all these things

and many, many more;

a kaleidoscope of a quintillion different perceptions

and I am that which makes experiencing possible.

I am the Eternal Subject

yet I also take the form of every object.

I Am All That Is.

I Am all Knowing.

I Am all Being.

I Am.

I Am.

I Am.

Written: 2021

Priceless moments (2025)

Afrikaburn

• Portrait photos
• Site and slideshow
• Art installations at dawn on dex
• Zebra leggings
• The Burns, especially The Scratch, Clan, Dog&Owner
• Ego Check and heart
  
  

Home

• Discover leak coming from cupboard, not flower beds
• Roof issue resolved !?
• Smaller flower bed complete
• Balcony grouting looking good
• Painted rocks on balcony
• Find housemate twice quickly (Shra & Maria)

Swimming

• Bronte swim under full moon
• Swimming up rapids and swim back at Brents Basin, including heron flying over
• Maiden's Cove tidal pool, Cape Town

Hiking

• Night on Table Mountain
• Canyoning with Srini & Andre

TV & Movies

• White Lotus
• Companion (2025)
• Weapons (2025)
• Wicked: Popular song by Ariana Grande (and her oscar performance with co-star)
• I Swear (2025)
• Sentimental Value (2025)
• Black Mirror S7

Beauty

• Mist clears at Maiden's Cove
• Opera singing at Cape Town Cathedral
• Ospreys at Long Reef

Family

• Dad's letters to Jo while overseas

Tennis

• 42 wonderful games, evenly matched

Fun

• Humming tunes with Russell

Jubilation

• Winning wood throwing with Russell and family after shaky start
• Success of our red curry dinner for family
• Tennis: Coming back from plus 4 match points to win (x 2)
• Win 4 tennis games in a row

Photography

• Grassbird and sunbird in Betties Bay
• Ospreys at Long Reef
• Cathedral

Birding

• Kingfisher and crake in my backyard
• Ospreys at Long Reef

Music

• Sasha Park busking in Circular Quay with everyone dancing. Donate & leave comment with lovely response.
• John William documentary, especially Schindlers List theme.
• Laufey
• Save Your Tears (Arianda Grande & The Weekend)
• Creating songs for mum, Jo, Chris, 2 spiritual songs 

Movies

Spiritual moments (2025)

Afrikaburn

• Ego Check booth burning to reveal a heart built into its frame
• Mack message

Sit and be

• When shopping for mum's present → Sit & be and there is immediate resolution

Roof leak

• Day of intense Presence & Surrender

Benevolence reminders

• Fleshing out "Wonderful world"
• Times of worry that all worked out (Garage leaks, finding housemates)
• Watching nature documentaries (Our Planet, Life on Our Planet)
• Yogi prostrate

Movies

• Sentimental Value (2025)
• I Swear (2025)

Nature documentaries

• Ocean (2025)
• Shark Whisperer (2025)
• Life on our Planet (2023)
• Our Planet (2019 - 2023)
• Life in Color (2021)

Insights (2025)

Life is a movie: Limits of science and intellect

• Mystical insight points to transcendent, ineffable, super-sensory, timeless, dimensionless, benevolent, non-dual reality that gives rise to observable world events and the sof our senses. Science points to the non-dual, timeless, dimensionless state of reality through quantum physics and relativity. Actually this reality is transcendent reality is Consciousness. We know this reality in mystical states when we merge with it.  There is only consciousness and its contents (Subjective experience). Science (with focus on what can observe and measure) and intellect (with time, space, separate subject and objects, causation etc. built in) really struggles to explain and describe this reality. Both consciousness and its contents.  Right brain modes of being have essential role to play.
• Subjective is significant and indisputable aspect of reality. But science and intellect ill suited to know, capture or explain it.
• Truth is an expanded state of being: a non-conceptual right brain mode of knowing and being, that the intellect can only point to.
• The intellect can be used to switch itself off. Like a thorn removing a thorn. A ladder / raft.

Mind as content, not agent

• The mind is an appearance, created by brain or consciousness. It is an activity / process in brain or consciousness. An excitation of matter or consciousness.  It is not an enitity or agent. Except in dualism which makes no sense.

Nature of consciousness

• Structure: How it appears
• Texture: How it feels
• Content: What appears

Gene Key 18

• Judgement → Integrity → Perfection
• An extraordinary clarity of vision — often intellectual, analytical, or even surgical.
• You are here to see where the world is out of tune, and help it sing in harmony again.
• Can grasp things that others cannot easily see
• Creative project:  Remain in one place for extended time
• Simplicity
• I will have enough
• Prosperity is in your connection to source, to nature, and the simple purity of loving your life
• Seeing the perfection in everything just as it is.
• Moving from withdrawing to protect your clarity to entering the world to radiate your clarity.

Plant seeds today

• Invest in areas (habits, skills, projects and initiatives) that will reap return (shade and fruit) later. 
• Plant seeds and tend to plant. Keep investing and tending to it. Then reap a life time of fruit.
• Seeds need special nurturing at beginning. Vulnerable to harm. As germinate and grow, become more and more hardy and self-sustaining. But still need fertilising and pruning.

Garage leak

• Martin: Do not worry until I tell you. Make yourself ill.
• Martin problem solving and level mindedness
• No point to panic until worked out source of leak
• "Wailing Will" character
• Sharon "Get in touch with younger Graeme where anxiety and "all is not well" default started
• It was so helpful to spend afternoon with Lydia and Sharon. Slept that night

Not avoid

• Garadge leak. Had look when tenant told me 2nd time.
• Xenia "Tell anyone re 12 step program?"  Phoned Shushann immediately. No.

Power of calm

• Ramaphosa stays calm despite Trump video and gets political capital.

Gavin

• Not fazed by several not liking yellow doors.

Timber

• Timber project was fine: Overly anxious and over-managed
• Didn't check my wood. Missed back balcony.

Reflect, not just curate

• Reflection and writing is key, not just reading and curating quotes. 
• Writing creates insight. Texts to Yogi. 
• Be able to explain it to a child

Review

• Only track what I will actively review and learn from

Honour people's private stuff

• Xenia and 12 Step Program

Non fiction books read (2025)

• Rational Mysticism  (John Horgan)
• The Grand Illusion (Steve Hagen)
• The Outer Limits of Reason (Noson S. Yanofsky)
• The Web of Life ( Fritjof Capra)
• Mysticism: Value and Validity of Mystical Experiences  (Antti Pilola)

Image of Jason in his paw print

Sam made a paw print of Jason, shortly before he passed away. Amazingly, you can see an image of him in it.  How wondrous!

Balls Head: The perfect place for personal development and meditation

 Xenia and I have been meeting at Balls Head each Friday as part of a personal development project we are both working on.  So lovely to do it in nature.  It really is a special place and only a few minutes from home.  We are always paid a visit by the local bush turkeys. I love them so much.

Agnus Favourite music: Dei - The Armed Man: A Mass For Peace

Absolutely stunning music from Karl Jenkins.

 

AI Podcast about Life Trove

I've just discovered the wonders of Notebook LM, an AI resource powered by Google's Gemini.

I gave it the URL of Life Trove and it created a wonderful, interactive podcast that provides some profound reflections on it. It's so wonderful, it had me close to tears at times. 

I particularly liked how it described my life as a combination of external adventure and internal introspection and how these two activities can create a virtuous circle. I'd never thought of it that way before but it resonates as beautifully true.

Listen to Podcast here

Spiritual connection (2024)

Total:  6.93 

Meditation

It was a bumper year for meditation. I meditated an average of 48 mins per day which is over twice what I did last year.  Total meditation was 294 hours compared to 126 hours last year.

Notes

• I meditated on my back on a yoga mat I purchased with a back roller for head pillow. 
• I usually do two meditations of 30 mins each. The 1st 10 mins of the first session is spent in conscious gratitude. The rest is spent in a state of awareness of being aware while allowing the attention to go where it wishes.
• The first meditation session is done after 60 - 90 mins of work in the early morning. The second session is done after working another 2- 3 hours.
• My occasional mantra is "Thank you for Being. Thank you for the Knowing of my own Being. Thank you for experiencing. Thank you for This."
• I used the Still app on my i-phone which keeps track of time spent meditating and a chime every 3 minutes.
• This year I got Yogi into meditation using the Still app.
• At the end of the year, Xenia and I did 3 meditations in nature. I intend to do more meditation in nature next year.
• The meditation is definitely having a wonderful effect. It is immensely calming and helps my energy levels. It also makes me feel more spiritually connected.

Moments of synchronicity (2024)

• Uber driver: His tshirt and the ribbon.
• David Gray, Babylon on Spotify and at book store. Theme:  Reconnection, reconciliation, spiritual longing, hope and grace after distraction, separation & confusion. 
• Car battery flat outside my house with NRMA road assist cancelled, neighbour has special "instant" spark plug. He was present and asked me if there was a problem.
• Continually finding parking outside venues
• Go to correct platform where train has been sitting for ages. It leaves as I board it.
• Take garden refuse out. The trucks arrives at that exact moment.

Spiritual moments (2024)

Notebook LM podcasts

• A podcast of "Life is a Movie" summary when I'm feeling demotivated and doubtful.
• A super affirming, insightful podcast about Life Trove. Travel & Introspection. Self as curator and coherent story teller. Interconnectedness of all life's aspects. Life is in the little moments. Valuing connection and relationships over possessions. 

Release

• After One Day "It all passes, Life"

Benevolent universe

• Passport lost: Martin:  "In books?"
• Contact Cosgrove day before leave for dex.
• 30 minute appointment: Realise 1 month dex mistake. Still 3 months.

Visions

• With eyes open:  Puffin, Fulmar

Love

• Curating photos of our Garden of Stones hike and feeling so much love for the boys.

Priceless moments (2024)

Hikes & Walking

• Die Hel day of swimming & leaping
• Devil's Peak
• Mermaid Falls leap
• Kanangra leap
• Walking Berry Island with Beata

Iceland

• Iceland comes through
• Grimsey puffins and bird cliffs in zodiac. 
• Fulmars and Arctic terns in flight.  
• Coastal hike with incredible sculptured rock silhouette.
• Catch puffins in flight. Knowing it is a killer photo!
• Puffins touching bills. Winning competition with such a killer photo. Audience gasps at puffin in flight and Gavin knows it's mine. Third triumph in three trips.

Music

• Billy Eilish: Birds of a Feather
• Sabrina Carpenter: Expresso & Please, Please, Please
• Good Luck Babe!  (Chappell Roan and Sabrina Carpenter versions)
• Taylor Swift

Photo Meetups

• Being a tourist in Sydney
• New friends: Jason, Libby, Christina, Stan, Matthew, John, Beata

Tennis

• Joy of playing
• Slice serve comes right

Get togethers

• Watch Sharon's niece sing

Xenia

• Meditate in nature & savour sublime salad when very hungry

Movies

• Deep "bitter sweet" feelings from romantic movies: One Day, Normal People, Past Lives, All of Us Strangers, 500 Days of Summer
• The ending of Anora
• Movies:  Dune, The Substance, Strange Darling

Insights (2024)

Face issues

• Pulse rate (1 year of stress)
• Steve and Greenslip
• Should have checked garage leak after rain bomb
• Estate duty calculation: Save loads for now

Power of my mind to stress

• Triaxil management fee
• Iceland competition
• Dr Cosgrove dex for Iceland
• Put water into oil ?
• Canon 400mm marks

Advantages of courage

• Went into pharmacy, avoided day of no dex
• Into emails, Triaxil management fee only $12000
• Moving garage leak along, facilitated going without engineer ($11K saving)

Iceland

• Flight Centre (travel agents) as potential source of cheapest flights. Going in avoided a 1 hour layover in Oslo.
• My brain really stresses out and jumps to worst imagining. 
• Gavin: Name wrong on ticket costs $1000 and difficulties. Bags not arrive. All taken as it comes, remaining calm. 
• Gavin asks for room for me in Reykjavik. Finds cancellation. Benefit in asking.

Photography

• Benefits of shooting in raw.  E.g Reduce shadow in terns. 
• Portrait and landscape. Wide and close. Different angles. Walk on, assess, take photos on way back. Imagine if in Grimsey I hadn't walked on ?
• Research photography. Soft water in Iceland. Neutral density filter.
• Take more video. Some in Iceland but wish more.

Offence, not defence

• Biden after debate → Weeks of hanging on, defending → Changing to Kamala
• Ukraine unexpectedly invades Russia to their shock

Finances

• Price of myopic focus on wisdom
• How can reduce prices by shopping around with reviews (E.g. Watch for $40, iPhone case $ 12 , hair clippers $20)
• How risk adverse I am: When markets tanked
• In order and visibility greatly ↓ anxiety
• Power of finances in order (E.g. South America travels)

Finances limiting me

• Lost in wisdom, no strategy
• Not invest in 2017 (or 2020 during Covid)
• Not invest in Nasdaq
• Not track levies etc. over time, only big expenses. Not notice levies etc ↑
• Move away from HSBC in 2023 only. Lose out interest as rising in 21, 22
• Wasted so much finances in 2017, 2018 etc.
• Threw out paper statements (utility bills etc.)
• Tax pre 2020 not keep records of calculations
• Not seeing some expenses coming off (e.g. housemate advert)
• Car hold on and keep spending

Non fiction books read (2024)

 Self-illusion

• The Ego Tunnel (Thomas Metzinger)
• There is No You (Andrew Halaw)
• Seeing no Self: Essential Inquiries  that Reveal Our Nondual Nature (Katrijn Van Oudheusden)
• Beyond Illusion: Exploring the Six Illusions that Cause  Our Mistaken Belief in a Separate Self (Katrijn Van Oudheusden)
• Selfless Service  (Katrijn Van Oudheusden)
• The Ego Tunnel (Thomas Metzinger)
• There is No You (Andrew Halaw)
• What Am I? A Study in Non-Volitional Living (Galen Sharp)

Idealism

• The Grand Biocentric Design (Robert Lanza)
• Being Myself (Rupert Spira)

Left versus right brain

• The Matter with Things  (Iain McGilchrist)
• The Master & His Emmisary (Ian Gilchrist)

Other books

• The Power of Movies: How Screen and Mind Interact  (Colin McGinn)
• God is Nothingness  (Andre Halaw)
  
  

Favourite spiritual music

My uber driver

I was on holiday in Cape Town. Life had sent me some financial curveballs and was I feeling a little distrustful about its benevolence. I got an Uber to Mum and Mike.  Without me mentioning my life or predicament at all, my Uber driver told me how a couple of years ago he was financially destitute.  Being God intoxicated, he prayed for help.  Then suddenly he was contacted by a Joburg company who offered him the chance to rent a car and end up owning it.  It just felt right so he spent his last remaining money to get there.  When he arrived at the dealership, he was gobsmacked to discover that his tshirt was exactly the same colour as the ribbon on his new car.  "It was a clear sign and it gave me the most extraordinary sense of trust and gratitude" he told me.  He drove the car home and used it to generate income as an Uber driver.  "It has brought me so much financial prosperity" he said.  "Life is good.  God is good."

The story brought tears to my eyes.  It reminded me of the exquisite benefits of trusting Life and surrendering to it.  There is an Infinite Intelligence running the show and I am loved and cared for.  Life is not meant to make us happy but to wake us up.  So not all will always go to plan.  But ultimately all is as it is meant to be and all is unfolding for the ultimate benefit of The All.  There is nothing but The All.  Life is inherently good.

Below is the photo of him getting the car.  He was delighted that he had inspired me and I wanted a copy of it.

Spiritual connection (2023)

 Total:  6.71