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Graeme
Hi Lizzy. I just found your letter. The words were beautiful and they have made me cry. I'll respond properly when I can in a way more personal than text but for now, know that you have touched me deeply. I so wish I could be stronger for you and deal better with everything life throws at me without fleeing in fear. I wish I wasn't so particularly vulnerable right now. I wish I could find words like yours to express how I'm feeling. I wish words alone could be enough. I wish that I didn't keep causing you pain and I could wipe your pain away. But right now, without the balm of time, I can't see my way through. I'm unable to whisk you away on a white horse as much as I might want to. I'm not the hero you think I am. I'm full of fear of the terrible pain I was in just a few months ago I am so very vulnerable and full of self doubt. I'm so terrified of getting deeply hurt and not having the resilience this time to come back from it. I live in fear. I wish it was different. I wish I could be brave for you.


Lizzy
I don't need or want a white horse, or a hero. I just want you. Battlescarred and as scared as I am. I meant those words, and made that card by candlelight due to Earth Hour. I wish my words could wash over you like the balm you wish for. You are not a weak man, just an injured one afraid of more hurt. I do not wish to be the cause of that.